I don’t think I have it in me to write anymore.
My heart is so heavy with sadness over the news I just got at the veterinarian’s office today (well, technically yesterday since it’s almost 2am right now). Two out of my six cats (it was only six weeks ago that I had eight) have FeLV. So now I’m going through the process of making sure the other four receive all the vaccines needed to hopefully protect them from possible infection due to prolonged chronic exposure. I’m praying this all turns out OK… I still believe that ANYTHING is possible with the Lord and am praying for continued negative test results in the four and a complete reversal of infection in my other two, whom I desperately love. Like I just said, God can do anything.
I need to focus on doing all I can to keep each and every one of my beloved kitties happy, healthy, and most importantly, loved. But I’m struggling right now and the last thing I feel like doing is writing, especially about how this nightmare came to be.
I think I just need some time. All that needs writing, as of late, is sad, so I’m avoiding the chore of revisiting ‘Sadville’ at the moment. But hopefully the joy of writing will eventually return… I have quite a few works in progress saved as drafts, collecting dust.
But yeah… I just can’t right now.